Next meeting 28th January "uneasy feeling"
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Gently
I lay Two Feathers
gently on the springy turf, tickle his tummy and smile at him as I
tuck the bright blanket more closely around his warm, soft body. He
wriggles as he opens his mouth wide and gives me that heart-stopping
toothless smile, then blows bubbles through his pursed lips as he
kicks his legs in their confining wrappings and waves his podgy fists
in the cool mountain air. He’s five months old now and thankfully
healthy, with no sign of the ailments often suffered by young
children in our village. I must make sure he gets plenty of
nourishment as he grows. My milk is still plentiful and I must
gather nuts, berries and roots to keep me healthy. This is difficult
for me as my husband, Little Eagle, was killed before Two Feathers
was born and I have to rely on handouts from other members of the
tribe until a new brave, probably an older man without a squaw, who
has children needing a mother’s care, will step forward and make me
his woman. One or two are already eyeing me speculatively, but I
don’t want them; I want to give all my time to my own baby until he
is at least walking and able to look after himself a little.
I hum as I start
gathering the ripe berries from the surrounding bushes. The trees
are already clad in their fiery Autumn colours but the air is still
warm in the sun, although it turns chill once it slides behind the
mountains. I must hurry so I can return to the lodge before it gets
too cold for Two Feathers. I continue to hum as I work, perfectly
content in this peaceful setting.
I set the full basket
of berries down and take up another to start gathering nuts. These
are also a good source of food and will sustain us during the Winter
months to come. As I work I glance up and there in front of me,
screened by the bushes, is a deer, watching me but seemingly without
fear. Her soft brown eyes regard me steadily for some minutes before
she lowers her head and commences feeding, seeming to enjoy the
companionship of our joint endeavours, accompanied by birdsong from
the trees above.
I have almost filled my
basket when my companion jerks her head suddenly, looks fearfully
around, then turns and plunges into the denser forest, but not before
looking into my eyes with an urgent message, it seems to me. I
immediately glance all around, scrabbling at the same time to collect
my baskets and lift Two Feathers into my arms. As I turn to flee I
hear the dreaded sound of pounding hooves and the ear-shattering
noise of the hated bugle of the men in blue.
I dart along the narrow
trail leading to the village, then hesitate as another thought
screams in my head – “Not that way. They must be at the village
already. I can hear the awful noise of battle and screaming of the
women and children.” Where can I run? I instinctively turn and
plunge into the forest after the deer. Yes, there is the narrow
track she must have followed. I run on, my breath coming in uneven
gasps. I drop the baskets and concentrate on keeping my baby close,
hoping he will not cry out, but he seems to think this is a new sort
of game and crows in his cocoon of blankets as I race on.
The heart-wrenching
sounds from the village begin to fade as I draw further away, but I
am now climbing more steeply and my breath is tearing at my chest as
I try to draw more air in. I risk a glance behind me, but no-one is
following. It is as I turn to face uphill again that the huge figure
carrying a rifle steps onto the trail in front of me and an arm
shoots out to grab me. I let out a despairing cry, half scream, half
moan, and know my fate is sealed.
It is now many moons
later, I muse, as I sit on the stoop at the front of the cabin,
gazing contentedly out upon the vista spread before me. We are high
up in the mountains and it has been a harsh Winter, but Spring has
arrived at last and the trees below me are wearing their new green
leaves like featherlight cloaks which sway gently in the warm breeze.
Two Feathers is crawling towards me and struggles to stand upright
at my knee, burbling his nonsense as he does so. His smile now shows
several even white teeth but is still a delight.
He turns as he hears
the soft footfalls behind him, looks up at the tall man stooping to
swing him aloft and gurgles happily, “Papa”.